"Just" suicidal thoughts.
Hi there, I’m Mariana, and I have frequent thoughts about suicide and ending my life but… (Plot twist) I don’t really have the desire to do so, neither do I have an elaborate plan to take those thoughts into action. I just think about suicide in a much frequent and intense way than most of the people do. Spooky, right? Let me try to explain this. I must say that my many, many attempts of explaining this “condition” are not clear or complex enough, because I don’t truly comprehend the extent of this situation. It’s certainly not easy to admit, and much harder to live with the fact that suicidal thoughts are intrusive visitors to my mind. Because we are used to link, in the case of suicide and self harm, that a thought or an idea are directly related to a particular action. If someone dies by suicide, one of the first question people ask is “But they thought or talked about suicide before?”. If there’s an affirmative action, things make sense. If not, the situation (as hard as i...