So... I'm guilty for my mental health issues?
On world's mental health day, I came upon a thought of the kind of thoughts we have buried deep down, the type of thoughts we don't want to face. I realized that somehow, I've been feeling guilty for my mental health conditions, for both my chronic depression and my generalized anxiety disorder. I know, rationally I get it: it wasn't my choice. I didn't chose my genetic or it isn't like I woke up one day and chose to have certain behaviours, emotions and thoughts. I know I didn't do such thing. But the thing I feel, deep down, is that it's really easy to picture a different life in which only changing myself, I could be "healthy". I always find myself tracing back my fears and my deepest sorrows, and thinking in what unfortunate moment I "decided" that every single plane I got into had to fall down, or in which I gave all my energy away to find myself in a horrid fatigue constantly. I can trace every single triggering situation to a ...